Thank you

If you found the password,
then you remembered the starting point.

You remembered the day we met,
or at least the time we spoke,
like if the day we met mattered more than the rest.

You’re such a dummy.
I hope I never told you the password out loud.
I don’t trust myself when you smile.
You make me weaker than I pretend to be.

I wonder how far you’ve wandered in here by now.
How many corners you’ve opened.
How many pieces of me you’ve seen.
I hope you’re smiling, I hope you’re not overwhelmed.

I wanted to make you something that would stay.
Something that wouldn’t disappear after some time.
It’s the first time I’ve made a gift this big.
It scared me a little.

But you deserve things that take effort.
You deserve things that cost time.
You deserve things made carefully.
You deserve the best part of me.

Since the day we met,
there hasn’t been a single day where you didn’t bring light into my soul.
Even when you’re quiet with the rest of the world,
you speak to me, you try for me, I'm in your thoughts.

And I notice.
I always notice.
And I love it every single time.

Every time i wake up with your messages,
every time you talk to me, even when life doesn't let me answer,
every time each message you send is desired for eternity.

I look at the picrews more than I should.
But that’s a secret, so don't tell anyone.

I’m sorry for the times I worried you,
for the wrong words,
for loving in ways that are sometimes too sharp.
I try to give you what I think you deserve,
even if I never think about what I deserve myself.

This is my attempt at a standard.
Not because it’s big,
but because I want this to be the minimum of care I give you.
It’s small compared to what you deserve,
but it’s honest, it's a piece of my heart.

I hope one day you can see yourself the way I see you.
Cool.
Beautiful.
Gentle.
Strong in ways you don’t even realize.

I’m proud of you.
I always am.

You make me believe people can still be kind.
And I hope, even if it's selfish,
that we have a long time left
to laugh ,to make memories,
to make you realize that I won't leave you,
since you are a part of my mind,
to keep doing our best,
to keep choosing each other.